Well, to update about my life, I just started my graduate school life last week.
Though it’s still my own major from Bachelor’s, I feel like it’s such a long time ago already that I didn’t get to see my subjects again and I felt so nervous before the first class started.
I still can remember that night before first class started, I couldn’t sleep that tight since I was worried about first lecture in my life which is all in Korean. English is not my mother tongue but I feel way more comfortable if my lecture is in English.
After first week, I felt so overwhelmed with papers and curiosity. This kind of feeling is normal when you keep questioning yourself on your decision in the past. Maybe I didn’t a wrong choice. Maybe I might not be that good enough.
In the end, I decided to stop reading papers and go to sleep. After waking up next morning, everything seemed to be way better than the night before.
I realized that life is just like this. Whatever it is, you need time. Time to adjust myself, my speed, my life pace. It might take longer time than you’d expect but no rush. Slowly. When everything is in its place and you already get used to it, it would slowly flow and everything would be okay.
I tweeted this thought on my twitter and some of my friends came to show their support and encourage, as always. Our motto since high school is ‘Nothing just believe’ from Kang Fu Panda. My friend said the older we are, the harder things we face. It would be harder for us to believe that we can do it because it comes with different condition. But she believes that I can do it. Just need to calm myself down and slowly do it step by step. It might be slower than the others but it doesn’t mean that the final result would be worse than the others.
Her word is wise one as always. But one thing I do realized after reading her message this morning is that although you might not always keep in touch with some friends, true friend is always true friend and their friendship is so precious so you shouldn’t neglect or let it go so easily. If it means something, you need to make sure that you wouldn’t let it go.
Well, if my back up is this well, how can I just give up since the beginning this easy? Time to move on and just give it your best try. Don’t be afraid to fail because everything can be fixed. Always.
(This photo was taken in Bangkok. The day I went on one day trip with my friends. Got fainted but thanks to them I survived haha. Remembered that day I was fully charged after mental break down because of relationship.
Thanks to you if you get to read this. I know you know who you are. haha!)