The end of 2016, I had promised to myself that I’ll try to scope down my interest and indulge myself with the things I love more than before.
Almost one year ago, I was so sleepy (well the New Year Eve I was counting down with my friends at Gwanganli beach but still had to wake up at 5am in the morning) and freezing while holding my maknae’ tripod, which was set with my camera to capture the first sunlight of 2017 on Haeundae Beach in Busan. Fortunately, this year I’m flying back home after continuously staying in Korea for one and almost half of the year. Guess my first sunlight of 2018 will be at the beach again yet in tropical country which is way more warmer than last time.
The more I have lived my life, the more I learn that life is like a big surprise, you might expect some peaceful, busy, or another ordinary year will come and just go. But as Forrest Gump said, life is like a box of chocolate. You would never know what will happen.
Most of the time, back in Daejeon, I spent it with my friends. One thing sociology teaches me (again) is to observe people quietly. I have learned that the hard thing of getting to know new people is not really about racial, cultural or religious difference. But the hardest thing to accept the others is the difference on personality and attitude. I have learned through my experience during one year in Daejeon that I was always surrounded by the ones who are similar to me, especially in term of personality and attitude. With that, I didn’t really see how diverse this world could be.
But during one year there, I have seen more diversity of people than before. This teaches me to be more open-minded (well it’s hard. I already realize it hahaa before I thought that to embrace the diversity it’s super easy. But the reality kicked me hard and I’ve learned the truth), calmer and learn how to accept the real difference of the people.
I spent eight more months after New Year in Daejeon, my middle of nowhere. Daejeon, though at first I was complaining with the idea of going back to stay there during the language course, has become my comfort zone in Korea. I learn how to feel more and more related with the places. Everywhere in Daejeon seems familiar, and it does give me the feeling of another home.
I feel like I belong to the place, where people would like to leave or run away from it. Though one month before leaving, I was trying my best to seize every moment. Still, I felt like it’s not enough and I was a bit scared to leave this place. On the day I left Daejeon, while strolling my huge luggage on the train heading to Seoul, I realized that since the beginning, Korea in my memory, is actually Daejeon, not other place.
First few nights in new place was a bit hard. I did feel empty inside. But new friends and the busy schedule did help me a lot to get through the emptiness.
2017 is the year I officially start studying again. After escaping the reality for one year. I was anxious during the first month of this semester. First semester of Master’s degree wasn’t easy. (Well, I didn’t expect it to be easy anyway). Yet, it turns out to be bit harder than I had expected.Being too panic and also putting too much pressure on myself affect me in bad way. Yet thanks to the existence of my best inner circle, I’ve survived and didn’t give up during those hard times. (I love all of you sooo much <3. Hope you know who you are hahaa).
During this first semester, I have learned to give myself more time and learned how to calm my anxiety down. I learn how to be more kind with myself, how to love myself more in the right and how importance work-life balance is. (Well, study-life balance in my case). And also I start to be happier than before.
Master’s degree life is still hard and tough. But with strong inner power, I hope everything will flow smoothly enough.
Last but not least, this year, I did try to be smarter with all kind of relationship. I always messed up the relationship with people all around me, starting from my family until my friends. Not sure if I’m doing well enough for now, at least I know that I’m getting better with it than before.
Well, 2017 is another big year. Not easy, not too hard. And I’m looking forward for new year with new adventure.
See you so soon, 2018!
(This photo was my first sunlight of 2017 at Haeundae Beach, Busan. As I said, I was super freezing but luckily the photo was nice haha)
P.S. I’m still working on my term paper. Not sure if I can keep my promise to keep my blog updating twice a month for this month, yet I’ll try my best.